I was unsure whether to post this, but I just hope it gives even one lady a boost when TTC after a miscarriage.

May 11th 2017 I found out I was going to miscarry at my 12 week scan. It was single handedly the most heart breaking experience of my life. I felt I had been blindsided by my own body to think all was well with the pregnancy and naively was not prepared to be told my dream was all over at 12 weeks.

What followed was many scans and eventually an MVA to remove the pregnancy, months of erratic hormones and the grief, the lonely, isolating, crippling grief that is so hard for anyone else to understand. That grief will stay with me forever.

Exactly a year later, 11th May 2018 and we have just had a successful 20 week scan.

It hasn’t been plain sailing in this pregnancy, with some bleeding early on (enough to make me think I was miscarrying) and the anxiety replacing excitement due to last years experience, but we are now half way.

All I hope is that this post gives someone a little boost today. Over the last year I’ve occasionally stumbled across a post that had lifted my spirits when I’ve considered giving up so that is my only hope for this one.