I'll be deleting this later, but I have D.I.D. and C-PTSD. They were really triggered upon moving to a different country to be with my husband. He is still not working yet and wants to get me pregnant.

Truth be told, I need more help. Uprooting everything without a doctor, counsellor and psychiatrist has taken a toll on my mental health.

Waking up every day to cry for no reason isn't a good sign. Neither is feeling numb, loss of sex drive, loss of appetite and losing enjoyment in things. Days just go by before I even do things it seems.

For now I'm postponing my TTC journey because for mine, my husband and future children's health, I need to be on the right track.