Okay please don’t give me any hate for this

But me and my mom have a rocky relationship. She’s very dependent on me emotionally for some reason. Almost like an unhealthy obsession. Sometimes I almost “hate” her because of how she acts towards me. Like I can’t even go to her for normal mom daughter stuff becasue she’ll always turn it around on her and she’ll always end up crying and stuff like that. Im also always he bad guy because I don’t baby her like EVERYONE else in our family does. It’s just a very unhealthy relationship. And I don’t want her in the room when I give birth because she’s gonna end up right beside my face the whole time crying and she probably won’t even let us hold the baby first. She’ll have to be the first one to hold it is what I feel like because I know my mom. Am I wrong for this?? And how do I tell her?? I just have a gut feeling something is gonna happen and I honestly don’t want to be more uncomfortable then I already am since I’m going to be pushing a baby out!! I don’t know what to and I’m honestly stressing out about it!