It’s worse when he’s disappointed

Jamie
We’ve been ttc for 15 months so far this time. I’ve been pretty okay most of the time. Not too negative. Not too obsessed. 
My cycles are crazy. But I do ovulate. Even if it’s irregular. 
This month my period started at what would have been cd52, 12dpo, 2 days before I planned to test. 
Told my husband. “Really? *sigh* I was hoping we’d have a pregnancy to announce for Mother’s Day.” 🙁
He’s not said much about his disappointment. He’s just understanding and supportive. 
But it makes it feel worse when I know he’s disappointed too.