I shouldn’t be sad. I have a beautiful 23 month old. He brings me so much joy. But, I’m 3 days away from af and haven’t had any spotting, yet, which is usually my sign she’s on her way. Sometimes I get the spotting up to a week before af. So, I thought I’d test, just in case. Bfn. I didn’t test with fmu, so maybe that has something to do with it. Or, I’m just looking for reasons to believe it’s still possible. I’m sitting in my bed crying but I need to get up and pull myself together for my son. Just gotta keep going.