Mixed Emotions

Today I just found my sister in law is expecting her second baby. I just got so upset. Her son isn't even one. I was talking to her a few weeks ago saying how I hope I have a girl because it will be the first granddaughter. Well she then proceeds to tell me that she is trying to have a girl. If that happens I think I will be extremely disappointed. I am happy she is having a child but I have been trying for 6 months and nothing. Then out of the blue she decided she wants another baby and bang, she is due in January.