Boyfriend literally asked if I made up rape.

Okay so i recently got a new boyfriend and I love him, he‘s great. But when it comes to sex sometimes I’m really hesitant especially when he wants me to blow him. First of all I dont like it and second I was raped one and a half years ago and he forced me to suck a lot thats why I have issues with it and sex in general...

So the other day my boyfriend asked me why I’m not willing to blow him more and I didn’t want to tell him about the rape and backstory of it all. He got kind of angry because he thought I wouldnt trust him so I decided to tell him about the rape. He got super angry and asked me if I’m sure i was raped and if I’m sure I didn’t make it up as an excuse so I don’t have to blow him.

I got so angry I told him something so vulnerable about me and he seriously asks me if I made it up. I’m not sure what to think.

Also he didn’t get angry at me he got angry at the guy who did it but anyway I was so hurt. He didn’t apologize or said he understands me or anything. Now I don’t know what to think I literally wanted to leave right at that second but I didnt have a car so I just turned around on the bed facing away from him , started crying quietly and fell asleep.

What do you think? I don’t know why he would say something like that ...