I need hope

I need hope. I feel like I’m in the desert, waiting for a rain that will never come. I feel like I pray and cry out to God and I can’t feel Him. I have no hope in having a child anymore, I feel like I have nothing to offer to this world, I’m not woman enough for any of this. And I need help, I know I do. But for right now, crying in bed is all I can do.