Trying to get my spirits up!

Samantha

I did my first cycle of clomid this month. CD 3-7 50 mg. I got a positive opk and the next day had extremely painful cramps. My doctor did a day 21 progesterone test and confirmed ovulation. I am now 12 dpo and bfn. I keep thinking if it would have worked it seems like i would have a bfp by now! My period is due tomorrow and I'm beginning to feel like I'm out this month. I was so optimistic. I have had some cramping on and off that made me think my period was on the way but that has stopped. I'm torn. I want my positive so bad!!! (like many of us on here) It's been 4 1/2 years of ttc. I am worn down. I feel so defeated. šŸ˜ž Tons of money, medications, and surgery. I'm beginning to feel like this will never happen. Any of you ladies have some hope I can borrow?! I could really use some uplifting words right now.