I really thought this was our month. I had beautiful EWCM. We baby danced four of my fertile days. Confirmed ovulation with strips. This was it.

After 13+ months of trying to conceive baby #2, this was supposed to be it. I’ve been testing for the past 4 days, AF due tomorrow or Thursday but I’m having cramps, basal body temp dropped and I just know AF is coming. 😞

I’m sick and tired of having to “plan sex” because we have a 2.5+ year old and spontaneous sex would never happen during ovulation. I’m sick and tired of heavy, gross periods each month that scream at me “NOPE, STILL NOT PREGNANT!” I’m so god damn sick and tired of fearing a faint line because the other 2 times the lines were faint they ended in a chemical pregnancy. But I’m even more tired of those negatives. Those awful, white, not even a sign of hope, negatives.

I just want one more baby. A sibling for my son. A second child to complete our tiny little family. 35 is approaching fast and my patience is fading.

Just really needed to vent.