A little advice

Nicole • Mama 👧🏼👼🏻 👼🏻Irish ☘️ illustrator 🎨

So the past 2 days have been the worst roller-coaster for me! Yesterday I got the worst cramp if my entire life at exactly 5 weeks. I went to the hospital and after a scan, having found nothing in my uterus they told me I had an escpoic pregnancy because my tube was filled with fluid. I was prepped for surgery, my partner and I decided what to call our little one and said good bye. By the time I was wheeled into surgery it was 1.40am. I woke from a keyhole surgery to find out it wasn't an escpoic pregnancy but a burst cyst. The doctor told me that they couldn't see a baby when they were inside me so that could mean 1 of 2 things, 1 it's too early, or 2 the baby planted outside of the uterus. My hcg level was 350ish and I'm to return tomorrow to have it checked again to make sure it's doubling. I'm home and resting.i have also done 2 pregnancy tests and they were both so much stronger than from the tests on Friday when I found out. I havnt bled at all but I'm just wondering, could my little one still be okay after me having keyhole surgery? I guess I'm just really nervous about tomorrow and going from saying good bye to my child to maybe actually still being alive and well has left me a mess. I don't want to be happy because of the utter heartbreak I felt yesterday. I just want a glimmer of hope.....