please help me stay calm!

Destiny

so we're ttc with PCOS. my cycle is crazy irregular (I've had a 6 month long period, or went 11 months without one. my cycle is all over the place!) so it's really hard to chart but we haven't invested in OPKs or BBT just yet. I only started charting in January when my periods became somewhat regular for the first time.

anyway. my period ended on 5/3 , and glow predicted I would ovulate on 5/4 (which seems odd to me) but I am pretty sure I somewhere around the 7th or 8th.

this is gonna sound crazy but I just feel like it's my time. I couple days after I just felt different. I was so confident I told my hubby that I'm pretty sure we were. but it's now the 17th and I still dont have that BFP I've been praying for.

we've been on our very belated honeymoon this week, and I've been too tired to leave the room or do anything. and I feel really bloated and mildly nauseated all the time for the past 2-3 days. I had some mild cramping on the 15th which is when I took the first test which was a BFN. and I took a digital first response test today , which was another negative.

am I testing too early? are the symptoms just wishful thinking? glow says I should start my period tomorrow.

I dunno. the whole charting with PCOS has me confused since I'm not super easy for an algorithm to predict. so I dont know when I should actually test. I'm really just looking for some support or advice from people who have been down this crazy path before.