Just received crushing news

My day 3 fsh is 11.7. I’m crushed beyond belief. I can’t believe I wasted so much energy time and money on this surgery and journey. I can’t believe my doctor made me believe all my tests were normal. I feel so empty. I literally just bought that Ava bracelet last week and have over 300 opks and a ferning kit. It’s killing me just seeing all this ttc stuff knowing that it was all in vane.... ivf is off the table for us, so I have to just accept that my miracle will never happen 😭😭. Thanks for letting me vent guys. I honestly never felt so low or alone.