Longer post, but please, please read! I need opinions and help!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😕😕😕

I'm so incredibly discouraged this morning 😔

I've been tracking everything- ovulation with OPKs, CM, BBT, cervical position, etc...- and felt really good that this month could be our month. We've been trying for about 11 months now and each month I get more and more discouraged and concerned. Anyways, I feel like we timed everything just right this month, and things seemed to be going well. My period should be due on the 12th or right around there, and I'm currently 9 DPO. The last 2 days I've been feeling very different and experiencing weird symptoms, that I either have never had or rarely have- like extremely intense hot and cold flashes (to the point where I was actually really sweaty), nausea, back cramps, lower abdominal cramps, dizziness, weakness, heavy amounts of creamy lotion-like CM, etc.. (and no, I'm not symptom spotting. It was literally intense symptoms that I couldn't ignore). I've taken 2 pregnancy tests the last two days (I know it's too early anyways) just to be sure, and they were both negative. I'm definitely not be any means "regular" when it comes to a normal cycle, but it's regular to me and I know the pattern of it, if that makes sense. And this is just not normal for me.

So anyways, this morning when I went to wipe, I had this brown blood/discharge on the toilet paper. I only get this brown colored stuff at the very END of my period, and have never gotten it in the beginning. Also, I've been checking my cervical position like usual, and it's so high right now! Usually right before my period it is a lot lower than this. And my CM is usually really dried up or hardly there right before my period, yet the last couple days (and since I ovulated actually) it's been staying super creamy, lotion-like, and off-white color, and it was sooo heavy! To the point where I was feeling big gushes of it coming out during the day! It just felt so right this month, ya know? So I just wanted some opinions from you ladies. Good or bad, I just want to know what's going on.

So could this just be my period starting really early and with weird brown, clumpy, sticky blood/discharge? Or could it be just random old blood that was stuck up there and just decided to come out? Or could it be spotting from implantation or just mid/end of cycle spotting? Does this mean I'm definitely not pregnant now? I am so confused and I need help!!! 😩😥

Please and thank you ladies! ❤️❤️❤️

Implantation bleeding or period