As soon as I think I’m getting over my disappointment of having a boy and kind of getting happy about it I find out someone else I know is having a girl and I get disappointed again. I feel selfish because I already have a 2 yr old daughter so now I’ll have a boy, one of each, people keep saying. And I know after your first the excitement of being pregnant can be different but I’m finding it so hard to feel a connection with this baby. It’s hard to talk to other people about these feelings because they can be very judgmental but I can’t keep these feelings inside so I’m sharing them here. Thank you for listening.