Totally not click bait.

Today truly serves as my CD: 1666

I haven't had a cycle since Nov. 2013, when I had the implant nexplanon put in for the first time. The implant kept me from having a period at all.

So here's the dilemma.

I had the implant removed April 26, 2018, because hubby and I decided to TTC. So counting from that day, I'm CD: 29.

I had EWCM CD 17 and 19. We BD on CD 16 and 20. I'm not sure if I actually ovulated or not. So, counting from our last BD session on 5/16/18, I'm 9dpo or so.

For the past week I have had pretty severe cramping, backaches, boobs extremely heavy, swollen and so very sore. But these are all af symptoms from what I can remember. Just these seem really really bad. I kind of assumed it might be bad since I havent actually had a period in about 5 years.

Based on a cycle being 28 days or so, af should be here. I tested two days ago and got a BFN. I thought I had a BFP earlier but it was a stupid evap on a blue dye. I now am just using FRERs.

This morning I got up and the only symptoms I have are the heavy tender boobs (but not as sore as before) and extreme tiredness. I was actually late for work this morning. Also, I dont have the feeling today like I'm actually going to start af. Yesterday, I kept checking myself over and over because I felt like I was bleeding, but I was only CM. No spotting or anything.

Any ideas? I kind of already accepted the fact that I'm out this month just because the symptoms were so heavy af symptoms. No lightening crotch or burning boobs.

I'm confused by my body right now. The wait for either a BFP or even AF is so horrible compared to a TWW. 🤦🏻‍♀️