just want him to want me

I dont know if this is pregnancy emotions or what but I feel like I'm to fat for my guy like I'm ugly and now that im ugly and no one else will want me he doesnt either and doesn't ever try to pamper me always talks down to me.. tells me to stop eating so much... I'm 27 weeks but plus size so idk my body sucks.. hes mean.. hes 25 my elder k just want some kind of attention.. dont wanna go looking for it because i love him but dang man how long will I feel not good enough for someone who doesn't tell me any different wvw. if I am having his baby I'm so sad.. tired of crying.. I'll have a panic attack and he gets mad at me for it a f mocks me until my panic attacks turns into a total break down.!!!!!!! I'm so hurt tonight. I'll say I'm sorry for being snappy and he will ignore me the rest of the night and it hurt me sooooo bad.