Today , today , an hour ago , I went through something I wish on no one . I felt pain , I felt contractions , I felt a gushes , I felt pushes , I birthed a fetus that was not ready to be delivered . Today I gave birth to a baby I couldn’t hold . I couldn’t hear cry . I couldn’t feed . I couldn’t rock . I loved with all my soul . But I couldn’t fix . Today I gave birth to my third child . A child I’ll never get to see grow up . Learn about life . Learn about love . Today I felt real heartbreak . 💔