I woke up Monday morning, getting ready to enjoy my day off, catch up on some school work, and just hang. I went to the bathroom and I was bleeding, a lot. I thought it was odd, but my period was hella late from what I thought was stress, I had already taken a test and it was negative, and I believed it was just my period showing up finally and being wonky. I laid up on the couch and for the rest of the day I did not move. The pain was unreal, and I felt pale. Like have you ever been so sick you feel just all the color leaving your face? Hubby came home and said “you don’t look good.” I told him what was going on, and he thought it was strange but knows that my periods are generally pretty terrible so we just tried to move on with our day. Talking about it, the possibility of a miscarriage comes up and I said “no way, my last pregnancy test was negative.” He does the husband thing and takes care of me for the rest of the night and we go to bed. I get up Tuesday morning, now May 1st, and the amount of blood is astounding. Like I shouldn’t be standing losing that much blood. I figured “I’ll take the last test I have, just in case, on the very off chance it could be something.” I do the thing, place it on the counter, and go take my dogs out. I come back and there’s two lines, and I have never been more scared in my life. I send hubby a picture of the test with a text saying I’m going to the hospital. He meets me there, and the waiting and exams and the tests all go down. Short answer was: you’re pregnant, we don’t know if you’re miscarrying, get your levels checked on Friday. Y’all, those 3 days were the longest days of our lives. We got our hopes up when we knew we shouldn’t have, and the results came back Friday afternoon that we had lost our baby. Just yesterday I calculated it out and I was about 7 weeks along when I miscarried. And the pain of losing a child, one you didn’t even get to see, is just insane. I’m just out here praying for all the mommies who don’t get to BE mommies, and knowing there’s other women like me who I can turn to has helped so much💕