I have a giant obsession about my weight....before pregnancy. I was teased and tortured as a kid and I still see the fat girl they made fun of.

I am a size 14, hovering around 237 and 242, depends on my stress level. I am beyond freaked out about my weight gain. I

was 17 and about 185 with my first. 21 and 195 with my second (Lost 43lbs prior) and now 29 with my third.

I am the healthiest I have ever been. Physically, mentally and emotionally but I CANNOT gain 30 or 40lbs.