My husband and I found out the day before Valentine's Day that we were going to be first time parents and were absolutely elated. I deal with Type 2 diabetes and high blood pressure, so we knew we may encounter challenges along the way.

The results of our second trimester genetic test were not good. A counselor brought us in and the tests showed the baby to be at risk for Down syndrome, Trisomy 18, Spina Bifida, and SLOS. We had an ultrasound that day which revealed more bad news. The baby appeared to have an extra digit on one foot, and what looked to be a club foot. The chin was also very far in (it completely drops off when you see a side profile) and many of the long bones are measuring 5 weeks smaller than they should be. We had an Amniocentesis test done and are now waiting for the results on that.

We had another appointment today (officially at 19 weeks) with the high risk doctor. She performed another ultrasound and confirmed what the previous doctor had seen. The bones were still not developing at the rate that they should be (measuring 5 weeks behind) and the doctor asked us if we had discussed options.

We are absolutely devastated by this news. The doctor explained the abortion process should we go that route. If the tests come back positive, we are going to be confronted with a very tough decision. We do not want this baby to suffer and we do not want him to have a poor quality of life. I never imagined we would be in this situation. All I could think about these past few weeks was taking my baby to Dodger games, and now I may never get to meet him.

Has anyone else been down this road? Is there anything positive I can hold on to?