So my husband & I joke around all the time about "sticking it in your butt" idk where this ever started from, but we've said it for the 4 years we've been together. (we joke a lot lol). Anyway, I've let him try a couple times, but I could never let him get past the head because it hurt too much. During the few times he's done it, although my hole hurt, it never caused any bleeding, just some soreness for a day or so. A couple months ago, I tried on my own with lube & my vibrator & it wasn't all that bad. I couldn't really move it in & out much because it hurt, but I still tried because I thought I'd maybe let him try one day. Anyway, last night, we were picking & joking & he said he was going to put it in my ass. He pulled my pants down, put some spit on his dick & put it in. Normally when he does this, he tries for a few, I'll say it hurts or that I want him to stop & he'll just go to having sex with me. But I didn't say it this time. I figured I'd try it & see how far it could go. He was gentle & slow, I relaxed myself so it wouldn't hurt as much. All was fine, it didn't really hurt, it actually felt somewhat good. He was rubbing my clit & occasionally fingering me which made it feel better. I never thought I'd actually enjoy it, but it wasn't bad. He got more than just his head in this time, he had most, if not all of it in me. He didn't pound me & he didn't go super hard, he went slow & easy the whole time & for the most part of it, I was relaxed so I wasn't super tight & it didn't hurt. He finished partly in me, but then pulled out & we went about cleaning up. I got up around 6 this morning to go to the bathroom & when I wiped, there was little spots of blood with some of his cum I didn't get out when I cleaned myself up. I initially thought I had just nicked myself because I shaved last night & he just rubbed it when he was in me. The inside of my ass doesn't hurt, just the very end of it, the hole, so I patted it so I wasn't wiping hard. I got up about an hour later & went to the bathroom again, I farted a few times (I know tmi) which hurt but it wasn't unbearable. I wiped again & there were still a few little blood spots, nothing to be concerned about. About 15 minutes later I went to the bathroom because I had to poop. (again tmi) but as it was coming down, it didn't hurt, just right at the hole when it came out. When I wiped there was no blood or anything, which was good. Basically my point of this is, did he tear me a little bit or was it just because I'm not used to having anal sex? It hurts a bit this morning, but it isn't totally unbearable.