Disappointed in myself

Ok so I’m a nut job. I have GAD and PDO so I emailed my doctor to see if he could order labs for pregnancy because I’m driving myself insane with the waiting. He ordered them immediately for me and put a rush on results so they should be same day or early the next day. I’m kind of kicking my own ass for asking him, like really, I couldn’t even do the tww without asking for a blood test? Wtf is wrong with me. I mean don’t get me wrong, I’m glad he did and you know my ass will be at that lab tomorrow but damn.