I don't know if I'm in love with my boyfriend or if his "bipolar (I)" is intentionally or unintentionally triggering my "complex ptsd", my feelings for him over the past 4 years have been the same, I'm insanely, madly, and completely smitten and in love with this man, I accept him for who he is (good and bad) but nevertheless still react each time he does something I do not like, but I still find that after talking about it together, I'm still so madly attracted to him, we have a very active and healthy sex life, and we are both very satisfied in that dept, or am I being triggered and then going through some kind of cycle of ptsd and/or bipolar (I)?? i've never paid too much attention to both our diagnoses, it's just always been apart of the package (alex) and I feel like I see him the way he sees himself, I feel like we have very good rapport and a deep connection, possibly a kinship. I'm not sure?? how do I feel about him now? but I'm so damn attracted to absolutely everything about him, I have respect for him and he does for me... is this love? Or are we both crazy people? Sorry for rambling... I just needed to get all of that out of my head, and if someone can possibly make sense of it for me, that would be much appreciated?