for months now my mum was asking when my husband and i would give her grandchildren, every month has been a failed try since September when we got married. she so desperately wanted to get to meet at least 1 grandchild but today I got the dreaded call. my father first told me mum was dead, that was the first thing he told me and the most heart breaking thing to hear, they live 3 hours away. shes not dead though, well not yet. shes in the hospital and unresponsive. they needed me to give the permission to fulfill her medical wishes as she had put me right at the top of her list to make sure if there were no options left that would give her quality of life they need to make her comfortable and let her go. today has been one of the hardest days and i just wish i could have given her a grandchild before she goes,. my husband and i had already decided that if our first child is to be a girl she will get the name bella after her grandma. it hurts to know that my future children will never get to meet their grandma, I'm traveling down tonight to spend her last days with her, it means missing my fertile window this month though but eventually we will try again and know all our future children will have their grandma watching over them from heaven.