Long story short, my period started again and I'm feeling legit depressed. My friend is pregnant and I am over the moon for her, but I am so angry with my circumstances, which in turn are making me angry with myself for feeling this way. Last night all I could think of every time I closed my eyes was "why can't I be pregnant too?" and also the fear that my time may never come. It's absolutely gut wrenching as we have been on this TTC journey for 18 months.

Anyway, needless to say I got very little sleep. I have Xanax but ever since getting serious about TTC I stopped taking it unless I really REALLY need it. I didn't take it last night but now I wish I did. My anxiety is at an all time high and my depression at an all time low. And I am exhausted. I've seen people say they take Melantonin to help with sleep. Is this something you guys would suggest I take to help me sleep?