I have to get this off my chest

I feel like I’m dying every day. I was blessed by being pregnant. I fought like hell to keep my baby. I’m only 15. Can’t do much. But I fought had to leave the house. Social worker came. Either I did the abortion or the baby’s dad will go to jail and they will have to take away my baby. I’m broken. I didn’t know what to do I talked to the baby’s dad. He basically told me just do it who cares. I care. Please no judgment. I hate myself. I ask god and my baby that’s in heaven to forgive me. I fought a whole month cops were looking for me social workers even the hospital had to notify my social worker that I was there. And everyone was telling me it just wasn’t the right time. But I don’t care. It was my baby 😭😭💔 and I killed my baby and I hate my self. I felt forced😭😭 my mom and dad every day told me to abort or I had to leave the house basically my school councilors and social worker was going to take away my baby and the baby’s dad was gonna go to jail cause he’s 18. I had to just get this off. Please no judgement 😭💔