I have a boyfriend who i’m super in love with and i’d never internationally hurt him. but last night my ex boyfriend showed up at my house. last summer this guy took advantage of me and used me and abused me and walked all over me, but i was head over heels in love with him. last night when i saw him again, all those old feeling cane rushing back and we ended up having sex. i feel so so so awful. i told my boyfriend and he won’t stop calling me a slut and he’s so angry at me. i don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me, i don’t have any self control in any situation. i just don’t know how to say no to people. i feel so awful though. i really hurt my boyfriend. i broke his heart. i didn’t mean to ugjyfhh i love him what do i do?

UPDATE:

he decided he wanted to forgive me and act like it didn’t even happen. he’s like,, in a freaky good mood and not even being passive aggressive or mentioning it at all. i guess i should be relieved... but he has every right to be angry at me, why isn’t he? an hour ago i wanted more then ever for him to just shove it aside and forgive me, but this feels so phony. i know he loves me though, and i love him so god damn much, so this is good. i’m gonna roll with this.