For a couple of weeks now, I feel that we’ve spacing out (long distance relationship btw).

I feel that I’ve been able to make time to be with him; yet, it doesn’t go the same around to me. He’s been out with his friends lately. A lot. I respect what he wants to do, but I really can’t be the one who waits around for his time. On the other hand, I really do love him, and I don’t want this to get in between us. Whenever he does have time, however, he’ll ask me the typical things like “what did you do today?” to which I’ll tell him what I did and shortly after he’ll complain how tired he is over the phone and fall asleep within a couple of minutes. While he’s been out, I’ve decided to occupy myself such as studying, working, and going out generally. Even after all that, I rarely hear from him in a day. If I’m fortunate enough, he’ll call me late at night, close to midnight. And that’s when he usually falls asleep on me after he holds out a short conversation with an “I love you” and “i missed you all day today.”

And yes, I’ve spoken to him about how I feel. I’ve told him more than once that it upsets me that I rarely get to spend time with him anymore. His response? An apology. He tells me “sorry” and nothing changes. I wonder if he truly means that he’s sorry if the problem hasn’t been properly addressed. At first, I did believe he was sorry and deep down in his heart, he was going to change and make some more time with me. Now? I’m somewhat doubting he is. On a wider perspective, he’s perfectly content with how our relationship is. He’s fine with everything. Me? Not so much. I’m the one with more time on her hands, always hoping to hear from him—only to be dismayed with disappointment.

You may be wondering what’s gotten me to snap about it.. especially since this has been dragging for weeks. Well? A few hours ago, he suddenly told me he was taking a flight to NYC this Friday, and that’s the reason why he’s been hanging out with his friends for days at a time. When he told me that, I felt like tearing up for some reason. It’s Wednesday. Why is he telling me this now? Then, he continued to tell me he wasn’t sure if he would be able to spend time with me, but he stated he would try calling me throughout the few months. After he told me over the phone, he quickly hung up to eat and I was left alone with all my thoughts.

Again, I really don’t want to break up with him. My heart tells me to stay, and find a way to cope or maybe even fix the problem. My brain tells me it’s unreasonable to stay under these circumstances.

Am i overreacting about this? I hope not.