Is this weird?

I’m not sure if this belongs here but here goes. I found out i was pregnant on Thanksgiving of 2017 and miscarried on December 14. Throughout those 3 weeks i was pregnant, i was paranoid. I would go to the bathroom expecting to see blood and be vigilant on all my symptoms and worrying that they would go away ever so slightly. When I miscarried, i know that once i got pregnant with my rainbow that i would be so scared. However, it’s very much the opposite. I have no fears, no anxieties and no worries. Usually I’m a very anxious person. My appointment on the 29th doesn’t seem so far, unlike my first pregnancy appointment did. Is this weird? Should i be worried?