I feel guilty for not returning my husband the pleasure orally. It's not him, I just never liked doing blow jobs, and we're shy of 5yrs anniversary.... I'm feeling really down and depressed and almost considering hire someone else. I know, this goes against everything we believe in and stand for, but I'm just tired of the guilt! I'm almost closing myself completely from him physically and let him go, but down deep I love him, but I'm just want to give him what I know he deserves, it's not fair for him. I let him enjoy me inside, but as for BJs I'm not down like that... Is something wrong with Me? I'm currently going to be 18w pregnant, and have been emotionally whack all day, crying, thinking of him and our anniversary etc... I don't know what to do, where to turn... I just feel alone in my mental state.