Rant (only when he wants it )

I'm super freaking irritated , me and my boyfriend haven't had much time alone finally I convince him to get off his phone and lay with me I'm rubbing his back kissing him all over tell him I wanna play , he's asleep . he pushes me away I'm Soo freaking fustrated , the only time we ever have sex is when he wants it I'm sick of it I feel rejected and feel maybe it's cause I'm not Beautiful he tells me I don't really like sex . well I do he has had more sexual partners then me I feel I have to be emotionally connected now I'm in that kind of relationship and am still deprived just freaking irritated. over it I just want so D IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK FOR