Hi ladies,

I am now 7 days postpartum and am having a really difficult time.

My husband and I have two little ones: an almost two year old and another a week old. After many discussions and serious thought, we decided that we were happy having two children, and chose to have my tubes cut out during my c-section.

This is what we wanted, yet now, I am filled with such sadness. Sadness that I’ll never be pregnant again, that the chapter of bearing children is over. Questioning our decision, even though we were certain a week ago.

I was miserable during my last pregnancy, and I couldn’t wait for him to be born, as I was so uncomfortable and swollen. But now that he is born, I just feel empty inside, like I miss him being there, if that makes any sense.

This time around has been particularly lonely because we don’t live near family. With our first, people called, texted, visited in the hospital, even came from out of state to be there for the birth. This was the total opposite with our second. I don’t expect people to drop what they’re doing on account of us, but it feels like people don’t even care when you have your second.

I just don’t understand how during a time of such happiness how your body can allow you to feel such sadness. I feel like I’m just wallowing in a self pity party and need to get through it. I just don’t know how. Can anyone relate?

Sorry this has been so long. Thanks for reading.