I dont know whether to call this chronic pain or not because its not necessarily one thing but a collection of many things.

Something always hurts, its always my abdomen, back, shoulder, right hip, right knee and my shoulders..If im on my period add cramping to the long list of pains I have to suffer through.

Im tired of taking a bunch of pain pills frequently. Im tired of trying pointless muscle relaxers. Im tired of going to the doctors to get a prescription that doesnt even help make the pain or anything go away. Im so sick and tired of it all. I hate going to bed in pain and waking up in pain. I hate how the amount of pain I am in with little to no solutions causes me stress which just makes the pain worse.

I just keep crying, praying and trying to convince myself that it'll get better. Sometimes I cry to hard and so much I wind up throwing up and sadly go right back to crying because either the pain got worse after throwing up or its still the same.

I am a mess, depressed, having bad thoughts, and I dont know what to do at this point anymore..My boyriend talks me through it and tries to brighten up my mood enough to help push me through but thats a temporary fix (I appreciate it very much because he is the only one but still...I cant keep running to him). My mom just says take a muscle relaxer , take asprin, rest, but then turns around and yells at me saying Im lazy which just stresses me out because I can't even relax or try to. I have to deal with all this pain and her yelling at me like I am an idiot..

I dont know what to do anymore, I just want to be done.