I’m pregnant for the 5th time- this will hopefully be our 4th child. I had a loss before our 3rd child was born.

My husband and I want 4 or 5 kids and we are glad to be pregnant... but... I am struggling. Our youngest turns 1 in about a week and a half (I’m only 4.5 weeks pregnant) our middle is 3 and our oldest child is 4.5 years. We intended for them to be close and I didn’t care what people thought about the first 3 kids, but for some reason I’m full of dread about the judgment for this baby.

I literally don’t want to tell anyone and I’m afraid of the response. I’ve known I was pregnant for a week and a half and I’ve basically hysterically cried every time I think about it.

Anyone else struggle with judgement? Or have any advice for overcoming it?

I am super ashamed of how I feel. My husband is elated about the pregnancy, but we just don’t discuss it because I get emotional.