I've only been ttc for 7months but it continues to get more painful as time passes. I've had one miscarriage in the past most probably due to my antiphospholipid syndrome. I'm am now on treatment for my APS but getting pregnant this time seems so much harder, i will deal with the risks APS brings when the time comes. My partner and family tell me to stop tracking my cycle, my cm and ovulation testing, but I'm finding this so difficult. They say the second i stop thinking about it it will happen, but is this really the case? I'm not sure. I will keep going but how do you cope with the disappointment each month? What powers you through it? I am very lucky to have a partner who loves me very much but I feel like I am letting him down. Any advice would be very much appreciated. Baby dust to you all xx