in the last week I've found out that 2 of my friends are pregnant. I'm very happy for them but I hate them at the same time. neither one of them was actually trying and here I am 3 1/2 years later still not pregnant. makes it even worse that I'm not expecting to get pregnant this year either. my husband wants a specific dr that won't even schedule an appointment until you do a deposit and we aren't able to save anything for that right now. am I a horrible person??