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Nichole • Mommy of soon to be four beautiful babies.

I have been with my husband for 8 years now and we got married last year we have four kids together. But this year a lot has changed and it sucks. Before everything was perfect with him and I. But ever since his mom came to visit ( by the way she hadn’t seen me since I was pregnant with my second child back in 2015) but anyways ever since she came to visit and saw how I am and look like she’s been ugh a nightmare I always respect her and have a good relationship with her and all but sometimes I just get tired of it all she criticizes me for being (fat) she says like at yourself keep eating and soon you won’t fit thru the door. And now my even my husband has got the idea of me being super thin to satisfy him. I’m big I can admit that. Have I tried to lose weight? All the time but I have no support so I never get thru it. Another thing that happened was my husband surprised me with a puppy. It was the best day ever for me! But sadly she ended up dieing of parvo because my husband never wanted to take her to the vet. And I know, why didn’t I take her right? But I can’t I don’t have transportation or family her where I live my family lives 8 hours away. I had to help my puppy battle parvo with all kinds of home remedies and nothing worked the day the parvo killed her my husband never came home to help me bury her and I had to wrap her in a towel and put her in a bag meanwhile he came it was the most sad think I have ever done to pick her body up being all heavy and stiff it scared me so much! I just cried and cried all that day until 11:45pm my husband comes home drunk asking why I’m crying and I told tell him about the puppy he tells me that’s not true and goes outside to the patio to check if it’s true he sees her and starts crying how he didn’t want her to die when a few days ago when I cried to him to take her to the vet he told me I stupid for crying over a dog and he hoped she does. So I put my heart together and got thru the pain of losing the puppy. This morning I ask him if I can get a puppy I was planning to get and he had been telling me yes and now he says no because his mom hates dogs and she won’t like him. So apparently I have to be this perfect mom because if I don’t I’ll get talked behind my back and I have to be unhappy to makes everyone else happy. The week she came to stay with us I tried to wake up at 7am woke up my kids at 8am which they are still asleep but she wanted them awake I had to feed my kids breakfast that early, bathe them, dress them like if they were going to a wedding or something only to be around the house. When we brought her home to stay with us I told my husband to stop at Walmart so that I can buy her a new bedding set since the guest bed didn’t have one. I got out she wanted to stay in the car so I said fine I texted them photos of the bedding until she picked one she loved $59.98 is what I paid plus $7 for each pillow. We get home I make her bed and she looks at it and says hmmm I don’t like my bed or bedding I think I’d rather sleep on the couch. I was so upset. That might o said fine I’m done trying this is my place so I’m gonna do me like I am and always do. I woke up at 10:30 am like always my kids woke up around 11am my second child sleeps in the room she was sleeping in and he was already awake she says oh I already fed him since you never got up I swear I don’t know since when my son was awoken that he was falling asleep in the table!!!!! I took him to lay down and she said why are you putting him to sleep!?!? Now my oldest is my daughter she has anxiety so she is still in training diapers because her doctor and I are working on her so that she’s not afraid of the flushing anymore. So what his mom does is tell my daughter if she doesn’t put underwear on and pee in the bathroom that a stranger is going to take her away because what she is doing is not right! It goes on and on for a while two weeks!!!! Yes I told my husband and all he says is doing worry she’s old she doesn’t know what she’s doing. So she leaves after two weeks to stay with his sister and she starts talking about my that I’m a bad mom who sleeps in till 5pm and doesn’t feed or bathe my kids! She even talks bad about her own son!! She tells my husband’s brother oh your alcoholic brother is drinking again he doesn’t listen I hope he kills himself! Like who says that kind of stuff?!?!?! Ugh I’m so mad at all this!!! But I’m everyone of their eyes im the bad person always....