i just looked back at all the things i wrote on here and it all started when i was going to meet my now bf for the first time. before i never really had anything to say on here. i really didnt like ppl in my business, so i never had anyone to take too. after i started posting i felt better even tho some people were mean in the comments at least i got it off my chest. my bf now i met on a dating app and was scared to meet a stranger, scare i wouldn't like him or he wouldn't like me bc i cared for him so much. so i was trying to hold off our meetings for the longest. when i actually tried to meet him its like we couldnt. i didnt have a car he lived like an hr away i was in school at the time things kept coming up both of us cancelling. we finally did meet, it was weird after like i didnt want to judge him on our 1st date we needed to go on more. i didnt want to feel like i was forcing myself to like someone i liked but not in person. well he's my boyfriend i met his family spend the night at his house we had sex also pregnancy scared helped him moved. we talked about the future,getting a place together kids marriage and all the above. he's knows about what i write on here and i told him that if we ever get married he can read it and see what i really thought and how i felt about him and all the things he did that hurt me. i hope he proposes to me so he can understand why i did what i did or why i said what i did or acted like i did and read other ppl comments so he doesn't think i was crazy at the time.(i didnt do anything at all for me to be crazy) i really love him and he's a great guy, i tell him all the time. he probably got 100 different paragraphs from me telling him so. If your reading this that means im a fiance now and i should be right next to you smiling as u can see that you made the right choice.