it's been so hard lately. no matter what I've been having more and more days where I really just hate myself..... it's like nothing is satisfying.... my so is always there for me but its like I'm falling. he is like the only thing that can cheer me up, some days I can't do what I love and I just sit there. it's upsetting because there are days when we have a spat and I'm really hating myself. me being me I say the first things that come to my mind and it upsets him. I don't know what to do. if anyone has any suggestions it is much appreciated. please no crude comments.