previous miscarriage.

so this is a little hard to share, but i think it helps. we have 1 daughter, 5 yrs. 2 yrs after her, got pregnant, miscarried real early, then got pregnant again, and miscarried at 18wks due to my cervix thinning too soon. i just found out i was pregnant at 12dpo, super faint lines. but i have become obsessed with testing because i want it to happen this time. idk how to cope, just relax, and make an appointment without being fearful all the time...

has anyone else experienced? or test crazy like i am to be sure? i just want to have hope, and believe good can come out of this.