Here’s my before and after, but I have some explaining to do

February of 2018

June 2018

As you can tell, I lost a lot of weight. A lot. In 5 months. But I was much happier in the before. I’ve been dealing with depression for years, since elementary school. But i was at my ultimate high in happiness in the before, I knew i was overweight but I had accepted it and loved myself. I got out of a toxic friend group and i was very alone shortly afterwards and there was a lot of issues at home and I felt, like all I could control in my life was how I viewed myself and what I ate. I started hating myself again and even worse this time. So I stopped eating, and tracked calories in and out when I would eat and even made myself throw up when I felt I ate too much. (I stopped that) I know I’m a lot skinnier, but I still have so much hatred for myself and I’ve started to self harm (I had recovered and was over a year clean) So what I’m trying to say is weight loss is not always going to make you happy. For all you beautiful people out there feeling lost, don’t think if you lost weight you’d be happier, or anymore worthy, anything along those lines. You’re perfect how you are now and loosing weight will not make you any happier. 💝💖💕❤️💖