Will it ever be my turn?

I am really starting to lose hope that it will ever be our month. It’s been a year and a half and nothing. I have done cookie and everything and I thought this was going to be our month because I was feeling nauseous, smells were making me almost throw up and my boobs were sore. But still only negative tests.

My doctor had called last week because I guess there might be a polyp in my uterus that showed up in my scans. If this really isn’t our month I have to get a sonohystagram to see if there really is a polyp. I’m trying not to worry about it but it feels like it is just one thing after the other.

First miscarriages then finding out I have PCOS now this. I just don’t know what else to do. We have discussed adoption but we just can not afford that. It is so expensive.

Thanks for letting me vent.