I hate it so much... I really do.

Especially when I just want things to go right for once..

But knowing my luck, it won’t...

I’ve been talking to this guy for about a month or so, and we’ve been on a handful of dates. Last Wednesday we went out for drinks, and then he invited me over to his place.

Plan was to drink a little more, order a pizza, watch a movie - average joe date. Which I love and appreciate as I’m not someone who wants to have a bunch of money spent on them and I don’t want to be “impressed” all of the time. I just want to chill.

Well, part one was well achieved, we started a movie, but then things got a little frisky.

It was all consensual, and I remember it fully on my part. We both asked each other if we wanted to and what we were doing was okay (and we even talked about it the next day, and he seemed really cool about it and like he had no regrets or anything). And it was amazing. The both of us said it was the best sex we’d ever had.

But here it is a week later.. and we haven’t talked nearly as much. Granted I know he works a full time job and he’s busy, and I don’t want to bug him and be “that crazy girl”, but I don’t want to lose him even as potentially just a friend. He’s so sweet and so nice, and before we got frisky we had this deep conversation that literally lasted over an hour..

I just don’t know what to do and my brain is just telling me that I’ve fucked up yet another potential good thing..

it sucks..