I met this guy at a bar early October of 2017 and we exchanged numbers. The next day we hung out together and pretty much ever since we’ve been together almost everyday. He never really made it clear what he wanted until about 4 months in when he texted me asking if I was catching feelings. He said he didn’t mind but he wasn’t ready for a relationship and didn’t want to see me get hurt which I was fine with because I hadn’t realized I was falling in love with him. This has been going on for almost 9 months and we literally spend everyday and every night with each other like a couple who lives together so I fell in love with him. We’ve met each others families and even spend holidays together. However he still doesn’t want anything serious which I don’t understand considering we act like a couple and our friends and family think we are. But I’m just hurting myself because I know it’s not gonna get anywhere, so 2 days ago we had an argument and I took my things from his house and left. Last night I texted him and told him I couldn’t see him anymore and I had to give myself space away from him because we both knew I caught feelings and got attached and it wasn’t mutual and I’m so hurt even though I was the one who ended things. It feels as if I’m going through a breakup. I let this go on for too long and was breaking my own heart which is why I made that choice. I couldn’t stick around any longer waiting on something that is never going to happen.

Sorry it’s so long I just needed to vent about my situation.