life is so fragile

I still can't believe my baby is gone. time passes but I feel like I'm standing still. the pain deepens more and more. I wish I could go back and stop this tragedy from ever happening. I wish I could hold him again. I will never forgive myself for buying those balloons. I never let my baby play with them. I bought them for his older brothers to have water balloons. they had to keep them outside but one made it in to the house and now my baby is gone. I never realized just how dangerous they were. had I known I

would've never let any of my kids play with them. it all happened so fast there wasn't even enough time to react. as soon as I saw him put something in his mouth I ran to him but he already stopped breathing. my poor baby I'm so sorry