so im pretty big.

im 19 and im sure im over 330

im 5'8.

( im crying while typing this its hard)

i don't like how big I've became. and its like nothing will help me. i can't go to the gym right now since i don't drive.

and my life lives on soda i dont eat much but im picky.

i want to look better. i want to be healthy. i want too look better for my husband. we want a family and i dont want to be this huge and get pregnant.

help me. advice anything

i want to feel better.

i want to look better

and i want to get out this depression

UPDATE: im adding a picture of me. and that's hard for me too do

i feel ugly. i look ugly.

this is honestly the hardest thing ive done. but i have too. i can't keep this life I have

me in that red dress is When i met my husband almost 2 years ago.

i have to fix me