Coworker is pregnant and...

I’m trying to be happy for her. She miscarried in December, she was just a little less far along than I was for my loss in May.

I am so, so happy for her and that she get to have her little bundle in January. But I am so heartbroken that I won’t get my Christmas baby boy. It hurts my heart to watch her, but at the same time I’m excited for her; because I remember how much I enjoyed pregnancy with my daughter. I wish I had named my little boy. But at the same time, I don’t know if that would make it better or worse.

But because of the loss, I decided to go back to school and get my medical assistant degree to get a better job for when I do get my miracle. I will graduate in April(pending financial aide going through).

Not quite getting over it, but pushing though to better my mind and mine and my families lives.