Dying Sex Life

UPDATE 6.25

So, I have been wracking my brain trying to think of how to have a calm conversation with my fiancé about all of this. my stomach had been in knots for the passed few days but I finally brought it up to him again last night. I started to tell him how I felt and if he was still attracted to me, loved me, cared for me, ect. He was taken aback and asked why I would even ask. I started sobbing and told him that him watching porn and not having sex with me, was destroying me, my confidence, self esteem. It was mentally fucking me up. He then started to tell me that he has been feeling distant, sexually, with me because he has been having bad anxiety and depression he apologized and said that porn is now off the table. he said that even he felt wrong for watching and that seeing me this upset over it was more than enough of a reason to stop. He told me that he loves me and didn't quite understand why he fell into that porn worm hole but that he regrets making me feel the way I did.

A few hours after all that was said and done, we had the most mind blowing sex that we've had in such a long time. Thank you ladies for the advice, I cried and laughed at the responses and I feel that the only way to figure something out, is to straight up have a real ass conversation with your SO, no matter how touchy the subject. Have it with yourself, first and go from there.

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Lately, my fiancé has not been in the mood to have sex. We've had sex maybe once in the past 3 months, which honestly is driving me insane. Recently, I found out that he's been watching porn to get off, again. There was a point where he stopped watching it completely and we were having sex quite often, spontaneously. Anyway, we got into an argument where I asked him if he would stop watching again. He said that it's human nature to watch... so I let it go. But now it's gotten to the point where he says things like "well you're not around... so I have to get off using other methods." I understand that people have urges and shit but come on. We don't live together, we see eachother about 2-3 times a week due to our work/home schedules.. so when we do get to see eachother he's just never in the mood, but he's sure as hell jacked off to porn earlier in the day. I don't think he understands how he's making me feel knowing that he'd rather watch porn than actually have sex with me. Tonight, I was dropping hints and trying to get him to see that I was wanting him and nothing. So I gave up. Laid in bed next to him for a few moments and then I decided to go home because I was on the verge of tears. Maybe I sound like a brat or desperate but I shouldn't have to almost beg my FIANCÉ to have sex. I feel like giving up and see how much longer we go without being intimate just so that maybe then he'll notice me. Am I overreacting?