I know it was probably just a high school fling. never meant to last anyway. but the feelings I have for him are so strong it's the most love I've ever felt for anyone. I can't hope to get back together even though I do. he's a 1000 miles away and it'd just be stupid to contact him now right? 3 weeks after we broke up. so why do I still hope and ache to talk to him even though I know it's futile. I was my best self with him and now I'm just falling apart